So, I know I'm not the only one who has had this problem..but I really feel like a lot of people don't really care what you want when you're having a baby. They do what they want reguardless of what you request, feel or want. I'm not sure why people do this, but it just adds more stress for the new parents...I guess it's just a selfish indulgence for that person or people. This has brought me the MOST stress (besides being sick) during my pregnancy.
I had my growth ultrasound yesterday and even though I've not gained a lot of weight, I do have a pretty healthy kid in there! She is approx 4lbs 9oz. and pretty darn active. (the length of the baby cannot be determined because of the awkward positioning) She is head down and her head is turned to my right, which is preferable for a vaginal delivery. Bad part, her head is wayyyyy down in my pelvis...like WAY down...resting on my cervix. Measurements were hard to get because she was so low and basically behind my pubic bone. This makes for a VERY uncomfortable carry. I will not know what "lightening" will feel like...cause she is IN there. I've had a feeling since about 5 months that she would come earlier than my due date and I think I may be right.
Speaking of the pelvis...the pain at times is debilitating. Like literally cannot stand, sit or lay...depending on positioning. If I sit for more than 30 min without considerably changing positions, I am in pain when I stand, if I can stand. Or I have a really nice contraction when I do stand. Getting out of bed is getting to be more and more fun. Oh, the flexibility of just bending at the waist....how I took that for granted!
If I eat a lot, well.....I feel like I have to lay down because of the pressure of the food in my stomach. It puts pressure on the rest of me and my stomach feels like a ROCK.
Emotionally, things could be better. I have no interest to really talk to anyone much, so please don't take offense, but I just am not in the mood. I guess sometimes thinking of all the things I need to do and don't have the energy to do overwhelms me. Anxiety is a big thing for first time moms & I'm starting to see this come to pass the longer I'm pregnant, the more I can't do...the more I feel it. There's a lot of stress and anxiety I have right now, but I am hoping that passes soon.
And I'm about done with people telling me I'm being "too sensitive." Seriously? Let me just be a doormat where you can wipe all your crap all over me...cause that's ok. Were you too sensitive when you were pregnant? Or how about when people just say rude things? Your emotions are already high & unfortunately, I feel as if I'm constantly faced with this one. Maybe this is why I don't really talk to people...because I'd like to avoid the situation completely.
Sorry for venting, but these types of things seem to be really rubbing me wrong. I wish I could say more, but there are many peering eyes and loud mouths here on the internet and I'm afraid if I say much more...I'll have to deal with it even more so :/
I think emotionally I'm done being pregnant...lol. So it's switched from the physical to the emotional and it's not like I can really go "work it out." And it's not like I can take a trip or anything...I guess I'm just thankful for a good husband who listens and feels bad I feel so stressed all the time.
I've decided I need more "me" time and need to pull myself away from those who put the most stress on me. So I get prenatal massages and I also need to do things that make me happy & not worry about what others think. (I think a lot of women have that problem in general!! Not ALL, but most.)
On a happier note, I've discovered some things that have helped my pregnancy!!
- REST, not necessarily sleep..because that doesn't happen a lot, but resting is great.
- Sleeping with a ton of pillows...Jon calls it my mountain.
- I have a wedge I sleep on & some nights that's the only way I get relief from pelvic pressure.
- Ignoring rude people :)
- Prenatal Massages
- Pedicures (Kind of can't help this one at this point in my pregnancy!!)
- I'm happy I have great skin & hair during pregnancy.
- Being thankful for a great boss & co-workers who are so kind.
- Being thankful for my family.
- My husband, who is the kindest, nicest man I've ever known. He may seem passive, but he's really not & always willing to help me. I think he feels bad that I feel terrible somedays.
- Concentrating on getting enough to eat and feeling kicks. She's a mover!!
Some items I LOVE
how cute is that? I love my gownie (I ordered two, one was last years stock & it was only 14.99...so I got two for the price of one :)
I just got this a few days ago. I purchased it because I have such a long torso and all my shirts are becoming too short. I didn't want to buy new shirts, so this was my solution! I love them. Of course they roll a little when you sit, but that's expected. I got two :)
I'm 33 weeks and 1 day...Not that much longer. And many changes to come within the next two months I'm sure of that ;)
I hope all of you have had a happy new year & a wonderful CHRISTmas season. I'm sure mine will be much more eventful next year!
